Mood: in the worst pain ever, just wanting it gone.. Listening too: Dance Gavin Dance—Uneasy Hearts Weigh the Most Lyrics/Quote Of the Day: “Holy shit she smells like heaven, been best friends since we were 11 and oh my god I like her. Yeah I heard you like her.”—Dance Gavin Dance
So yesterday I woke up during the night and felt this sharp pain on the right side of my back and it wouldn’t go away. I had enough and was debating whether or not I should go. I didn’t want to go only to find out something wasn’t wrong then having that feeling of stupidity afterwards. But, turned out something really was wrong. I had a huge cyst inside of me rupture, and they also thought it was a combination of kidney stones… So I had to get x-rays done, and then they made me stay for the night. I had to get an I.V stuck in my arm to make the pain go away because it was just that horrible. And the medicine they gave me screwed me up. I’m not going into detail about that because there are people where I live who read my website and would purposefully try to get me in jail. e.e But anyway back to what I was saying. The medicine was a very strong muscle relaxer and it relaxed me alright. xD I couldn’t walk at all because every muscle in my body was relaxed. Everytime I tried to move, I almost fell off the hospital bed because I couldn’t keep my balance. But then again I’m used to stuff like that. Later on I threw up and a total of how many times I threw up was seven. ._. I went home today and have been resting like crazy. Eli Perkins (the guy I’ve been dating for almost 9 months) came over and we just fell asleep together on the couch while he was talking to my grandmother about tv. It was so adorable. <3 I love when he talks to my relatives like that, so nicely. And ho.lee.crap. His birthday is on Valentines Day. I wanna get him something special.. But I don’t know what..
Mood: seriously laughing. Listening too: Now You’re Gone—Basshunter Lyrics/Quote Of the Day: “Now you’re gone. I realized my love for you was strong And I miss you here now you’re gone.”—Basshunter
Wellll, today was pretty interesting and overall it was a pretty dramatic and epic day. The thing that made it so dramatic was that me, my sister, and 3 other friends were sitting in a room “skipping” band I guess you could say. We just left the room because it was so loud and the teacher wasn’t even there so we were like, “screw the noise! lets go chill.” While we were in a room just looking at internet memes, while we were chilling something REALLY dramatic happened. (But I’m not that kind of person to explain to everyone. It’s their business not mine.) But, yeah. It was pretty dramatic. Anyway, at the moment I’m thinking of things to add-on to the site. Probably gonna make more backgrounds and Photoshop Tutorials.
Mood: just bleh.. Listening too: Monster—Meg & Dia Lyrics/Quote Of the Day: “Monster, how should I feel? Creatures lie here, looking through the window”—Meg & Dia
So I haven’t had an actual post in a while and I was just gonna write something on here. I’m just going to vent on here because writing things out helps me think things out better, especially talking to someone. Lately I haven’t been feeling myself, after I made that video trying to help people when they’re feeling down, it made me depressed.. It just reminded me the time i saw grandad have a heart attack in front of me and all of that, and just my friend who commited suicide and the one who attempted it and ended up in the hospital.. It brought back so many memories and I just can’t think straight, and somebody told me some horrible things and I broke down yesterday in public after he brought things up in a smart ass way.. I just really don’t know what I feel like really.. I honestly just feel horrible and I wish things were back to the way they were but the only difference is Eli still be with me. Y’know, because in the past I wasn’t dating him. Meh.. I better just drop the whole subject before people start thinking I’m messed up or somthing. :/
This video is supposed to be inspirational, for those of you who ever feel down. Sorry about the quality, I recorded it with webcam since my camera derped and can only record up to a few seconds now since it got dropped. :c Anywayys, I hope you guys enjoy this. I really did try my best to make it from the heart and personal and to try to help make you guys feel better.
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Posted On: Feb 04, 2012 
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